Why it’s so hard growing up.
Life never quite goes to plan. You have to adapt according to change all the time. When I was younger I was oblivious to what went on around me, I lived without thinking about consequences.
As I grew up things changed, I started to care more. I started to care about what people said to or about me. I began caring about whether or not I was going to be accepted for whom I was and what I like. Recently I started to do what I like and like what I want instead of liking what other people say I should like.
People will judge you no matter what you do, think or say. One thing I learnt is that people will always have something to say about what you like or believe. People try changing my opinion and what I believe in, and it makes me angry sometimes because some people try force what they believe on me. It is so difficult trying not to snap at people when they tell me that I am wrong and that what I like is strange and I should change. The worst thing is when someone tells me that my opinion doesn’t matter and that I should change it.
This makes growing up hard. It is difficult being a teenager because you don’t want to be judged and told that you're wrong. I am an indecisive, self conscious teenager because people have told me to change things that I like, and change things about myself that they find out of the ‘ordinary’. Try being indecisive, it makes people cross with you when you can’t decide things, like where you want to eat or what you like.
Growing up is hard because you realize that you can’t do what you could do as a kid, you have to be responsible and you should set an example.
One of the first things people ask me is what I want to do after school; they tell me that what I decide will be what I do for the rest of my life… I disagree, I want to do one thing for a while and then decide on something else I want to do, but people make me nervous when they tell me that what I decide to do now will affect the rest of my life.
I think the hardest thing I have faced so far, in my life, is adapting to change and handling bad situations… I find it hard to like the person I am, I’m constantly trying to change and be someone that I’m not just to try fit in.
It’s funny actually; I found that as I grew up I started noticing the bad things in life and in doing that I missed all the good things. As a kid I didn’t notice many bad things, and when I did I didn’t think about them and I moved on. It’s hard to accept that I have to grow up, but I can’t change the fact that I’m going to.